Gratitude

Gratitude

When I found your picture

and wish you all the luck in the world,

I never thought

there would be a common happiness.

When you replied

to these congratulations,

I never thought

this common happiness would be true.

When a vision developed out of mails,

which we hold on almost a year,

I never thought

this vision would become a reality.

When you're finally stood in front of me

and I destroyed your plans

you’ve made for this first special moment,

I never thought

we would live a dream

which most of the other would not even try.

When everyday life

threw stones on our way

and we managed it together,

I never thought

there would ever be different ways for us.

When we started,

to deal no longer open with each other

and no more honest talk about our feelings,

I never thought

the end would roll up on us so early and painfully.

When our questions and fears

broke out of us like a volcano,

I never thought

we would hurt each other so much.

When we felt like we had lost our love

and each went own ways,

I never thought

I'd miss you so badly.

When I woke up

– months later at night –

and I missed your loving face so terribly,

I never thought

I would feel so sorry not fought much more for this love.

When I started thinking about it

and the mourning was sold by cherished memories,

I never thought

I would have so much gratitude

for each of your gestures,

for each of your words and

for every moment of your love.

© Cornelia G. Becker